Every day brings changes and sometimes I want to run and hide from them.
I want to return to the time when life made sense and my heart wasn’t broken.
Yet I know I cannot, I am not now who I was then.
In fact I barely recognise the old me at times. It’s not the hair colour or the extra pounds it’s the scars on my heart that make me different.
Life changes you everyday and sometimes the changes are good and sometimes they aren’t but for everyone change is an opportunity to grow.
Becoming a mom was one of the greatest things I will ever achieve but I never expected how having children would change the way I view life.
Having a disabled child was something I would have never foreseen, but getting to be Livvy’s mom created something inside me I am so very proud of.
I guess what I’m trying to say is this…..
Sometimes life will throw you in a direction you didn’t have planned, send you down a pathway you didn’t want to go. It may be hard, it maybe heartbreaking but don’t give up.
Know deep in your heart that every journey comes with its own unique scenery. Places too see so breathtaking you would have missed if you had taken the journey you had planned. Places that will bless you heart, soothe your soul.
You may meet people you would have never have met if circumstances hadn’t of changed.
Worlds apart colliding to produce incredible friendships.
I know I have met some of the greatest people since I became a parent to a disabled child. Parents with passion and determination. Parents with compassion and loyalty. So many have really blessed my life and I am so proud I get to call some of this crazy bunch my friends.
I never imagined as a child I would be a Foster carer but here now I know how incredible my job is. How amazing it is that I get to love on children in need.
Yet even beyond fostering I would have never foreseen in a million years I would be a university student, working towards a degree that will allow me to help children who have faced neglect and trauma.
Even here in this little piece of the virtual world, I never would have considered that this place where I share my heart, my thoughts would bring me so many experiences and create so many connections.
No matter how life seems right now, trust in yourselves.
Trust that tomorrow is a new day.
Keep fighting and hold on tight.
We cannot go back to yesterday
and today may be hard
but tomorrow may just be amazing.