A must read.

Never have I felt unable to describe to you a book. A book that needs an explanation but my heart is still a mess from reading it, not because the book isn’t worth describing far from it, but because the book, the story has torn my soul. Filled me with emotions and uplifted my heart so much.

Let me introduce you to Kisses from Katie.

Reading this book you will follow Katie’s journey from being a typical American teenager to becoming a mother of 14 at the tender age of 21.

It’s a story full of faith, love and commitment.

This young woman had a plan but God had one so much bigger. Thankfully Katie opened her heart and answered God’s call.

From a short mission break, to a ten month commitment to teach Kindergarten, to a lifetime commitment as a mother to fourteen children and dedication to a country which stole her heart.

Follow through the pages, the journey that Katie Davis takes from her only worries being the school dance to wondering how to feed over 1600 children.

While I don’t want to share the entire story with you as I really want you to go buy the book for yourself I do promise that you won’t be disappointed.

It’s a journey of inspiration, the story of motherhood and the call to love others as Jesus tells us to.

Katie offers, “People tell me I am brave. People tell me I am strong. People tell me good job. Well here is the truth of it. I am really not that brave, I am not really that strong, and I am not doing anything spectacular. I am just doing what God called me to do as a follower of Him. Feed His sheep, do unto the least of His people.”

While I understand Katie’s heart I do think she is both brave and strong.

This book has set my heart alight and I whole heartily recommend it.

To read more about Katie’s story please check out her blog Kisses from Katie and also the amazing charity she founded Amazmina Ministries.

****I have nothing to gain from recommending this book, I brought it myself but just felt I had to share it with you.

Enough

Some days I’ve just had enough.

I don’t want to pretend

I don’t want to smile

I don’t want to understand

I don’t want to care.

I want to switch off

Ignore right or reason

Escape

Run away

Hide

Today is one of these days.

I miss Livvy so much, her innocence used to just make me forget the stresses of the day.

Her cheeky giggle made me forget all my worries.

I miss her so much it physically hurts.

It doesn’t get easier.

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I Miss Kissing.

As I watch my daughter float around the house lost in the throes of young love. I cannot help but think back to when I first met her father, my hubby Alan. (Also when did my daughter get old enough to be in love, thats another blog post).

How my heart flipped when I first when I first saw him.

How the time apart felt like a lifetime.

I am lucky for the most part this still happens.

I still get that tingle when I see him,

I miss him like crazy when we are apart.

But after considering and wallowing in my memories I have come to the conclusion I really miss KISSING.

We do still kiss but I guess like most married couples, when you actually get time for a good old snog it tends to lead elsewhere.

I miss the times when that doesn’t happen.

Do you remember the hours you used to spend just kissing?

The hours spent on the back row of the cinema,

The cuddles and kisses on the sofa as you watched a video (no dvds then).

The innocence and promise of those sweet kisses!

I miss them.

 

Explaining Me

I’ve been thinking a lot about scripture and how some verses just cling to your hearts. They pop up in your thoughts at given times.

When you are exhausted you can one think of one with strength.

God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
(Psalms 46:1-1, NIV)

When you are lost, one reminds you of direction.

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.
(Psalms 32:8, NIV)

When you are scared one reminds you to trust.

Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD, the LORD, is the Rock eternal.
(Isaiah 26:4, NIV)

I have many that inspire, consume and replenish my soul.

The verse you see below was the inspiration behind naming this blog it is one I hold dear to my heart. I know my life has been blessed many times by angels.

Remember to welcome strangers because some that have done this have welcomed angels without knowing it. Hebrews, 13.1

Yet the last 6 months I’ve been searching for something that will explain me.

I get a lot of people asking me how I do what I do, how I’ve survived what I have.

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This simply explains it all. I don’t do it alone , all that I do, all that I achieve is because of and through Christ Jesus.

One at a time

I’ve been thinking a lot about mothers losing their children, surprise right. Yet the thing that has been laying on my heart is the unpreventable deaths.

I lost Livvy to the evil known as Rett Syndrome. She lost her battle and she had all medical treatment possible, all medications. Access to clean water, food etc.

Around the world mothers are losing children due to the lack of basics. Children are dying simply because they don’t have access to clean water, food or vaccinations against childhood illness.

The hope for our future is in our children. Let’s not allow the place they were born to be a reason for the death of a child.

How much we take for granted.

How much we could change.

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The Starfish Story
Original Story by: Loren Eisley

One day a man was walking along the beach when he noticed
a boy picking something up and gently throwing it into the ocean.

Approaching the boy, he asked,
What are you doing?

The youth replied,
Throwing starfish back into the ocean.
The surf is up and the tide is going out. If I don’t throw them back, they will die.

Son, the man said, don’t you realize there are miles and miles of beach and hundreds of starfish?
You can’t make a difference!

After listening politely, the boy bent down, picked up another starfish,
and threw it back into the surf.

Then, smiling at the man, he said

I made a difference for that one.

Help make a difference for one, please consider sponsoring a child with Compassion UK.

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Stamping my feet

Sometimes I want to stamp my feet with frustration.

How can I get him to see?

Why won’t he see things my way?

Why does he have to be so practical?

Please God touch his heart like you have touched mine.

I know I’m wrong for praying for his heart to change but I’m impatient. I see all the photos of children waiting for forever parents and I want to call them home.

My heart isn’t practical, it’s passionate.

My mind isn’t organised, it’s open.

I’m sure I’m called to adopt another child yet life doesn’t seem to be following this pathway.

Please God give me patience or direction.

I know you have plans for me, help me to understand them please.

Maybe patience is the lesson I have to learn.

It may be a long lesson.

I trust..

Ever since I stated that my one word for 2012 was going to be true, I have felt the enemy at my heels saying” prove it then”.

Conversations with strangers has tested my self belief so much. Is who I am, what I do good enough?

A comment ripping to my core of self confidence. Will I achieve my dreams?

The pain of grief tearing at my soul, challenging me, is this the life you prayed for?

I wear my word like armour across my heart, like a shield across my soul.

True.

God knows me inside and out, he formed me in my mothers womb. He created the person I am and the person I have yet to be.

So no matter when my self belief is running low.

I believe in God

When I have no self confidence

I have every confidence in God.

When life feels far from the life I dreamed of.

I trust in Gods plans.

True to my heart
True to my soul
True to my God.

Britmums 2012, Sponsorship needed.

Right then, it’s the time of year when I put my hand up and ask, “Would anyone like to sponsor me to attend the Parent Blogging event of the year    Brit Mums Live, on Friday June 22nd and Saturday June 23th 2012.”

BritMums Live! is a two-day blogger event that has grown out of BritMums, the UK’s largest parent blogger community, made up of more than 3,000 influential bloggers. 

 With over 500 delegates attending and with fantastic speakers like Sarah Brown, Ruby Wax It would be great opportunity for you to promote your brand.


    

For sponsorship to the above event I would be happy to offer

An Introductory blog post about your brand/product in my blog post about Brit Mums Live 2012.

The promotion of your website on my twitter and facebook page at regular intervals in the lead up to Brit Mums and afterwards when discussing Brit Mums and of course in my twitter updates at the conference. This means your post will be seen by my twitter follows, my facebook friends and of course the monthly 4000 visitors to my blog site.

An ad for your product/brand on my blog from now until six months after Brit Mums free of charge

Also in any other blog post I write mentioning Brit Mums will include that “I was sponsored by X” and link to your website.

I can wear any badges on the day of the conference promoting your brand.

Any reviews you would like to offer on my blog.

Of course I am also open to any discussion and any more suggestions.

Walking with Angels is a blog that wears its heart on its sleeve. What you read on the pages is heartfelt and completely honest. My readers have grown to realise that I am passionate and loyal and whatever I promote on my blog I have to believe it 100%.

Personally outside of my blog I have written for online magazines, charity websites and guest posted on other blogs. 

It is all this I will bring to promoting your product and your company.

If you would be interested in sponsoring me I would be happy to send the breakdown of the costs and discuss any further ideas to promote the brand.

Please contact me at Walkingwithangels@live.co.uk

Britmums 2012, Sponsorship needed.

Right then, it’s the time of year when I put my hand up and ask, “Would anyone like to sponsor me to attend the Parent Blogging event of the year Brit Mums Live, on Friday June 22nd and Saturday June 23th 2012.”

BritMums Live! is a two-day blogger event that has grown out of BritMums, the UK’s largest parent blogger community, made up of more than 3,000 influential bloggers.

With over 500 delegates attending and with fantastic speakers like Sarah Brown, Ruby Wax It would be great opportunity for you to promote your brand.


For sponsorship to the above event I would be happy to offer

An Introductory blog post about your brand/product in my blog post about Brit Mums Live 2012.

The promotion of your website on my twitter and facebook page at regular intervals in the lead up to Brit Mums and afterwards when discussing Brit Mums and of course in my twitter updates at the conference. This means your post will be seen by my twitter follows, my facebook friends and of course the monthly 4000 visitors to my blog site.

An ad for your product/brand on my blog from now until six months after Brit Mums free of charge

Also in any other blog post I write mentioning Brit Mums will include that “I was sponsored by X” and link to your website.

I can wear any badges on the day of the conference promoting your brand.

Any reviews you would like to offer on my blog.

Of course I am also open to any discussion and any more suggestions.

Walking with Angels is a blog that wears its heart on its sleeve. What you read on the pages is heartfelt and completely honest. My readers have grown to realise that I am passionate and loyal and whatever I promote on my blog I have to believe it 100%.

Personally outside of my blog I have written for online magazines, charity websites and guest posted on other blogs.

It is all this I will bring to promoting your product and your company.

If you would be interested in sponsoring me I would be happy to send the breakdown of the costs and discuss any further ideas to promote the brand.

Please contact me at Walkingwithangels@live.co.uk

Don’t judge me.

Yes I overindulge my children but I feel so blessed to be their mother.

This isn’t indulgement in the sense of money and gifts but in time and cuddles.

I’m often faced with people telling me that they only had one child so they could give them the world and all their time. They judge me for having four children and fostering.

Yet they are off having weekly girls nights out, holidays without their children, or working full time. Through choice not necessity.

Now don’t get me wrong I’m not judging them, we all have different reasons for doing what we do but I get frustrated when people judge me.

My children are my world. I work as a foster carer for two main reasons. One, there are so many children in need of a loving, secure family home. Two I want to be home to raise my children.

I want to be their first point of call. The person they come to with their worries their concerns. I want to watch them giggle and laugh with their siblings, tease their daddy.

I want to be there, experience them, love them.

Childhood is so brief one moment I was holding this adorable chunky newborn in my arms the next she is planning her 16th birthday party.

Children are blessings from God I have always known this but I confess the impact of losing my sweet daughter Livvy in 2008 drove this home. How special our children are, how blessed we are to be parents.

I love being a mom, yes at times I moan or want a five minute escape but truthfully it’s the best job in the world.

Being a full time mom isn’t a second choice for me. It’s not a second class job. It’s what I do by choice and I love it.

All love begins and ends there. Robert Browning

Being a full-time mother is one of the highest salaried jobs in my field, since the payment is pure love. ~Mildred B. Vermont

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